I'm stupid

hmmm.i have lots of things to say.i just don't know where to start.i'm trying to get more advice from my friend about what i'm facing.i hope it is a right thing to do.i could have tell everyone but not HIM): sometimes i get so fed up with my friends.not all.mostly.SHE, the one i trusted the most betrayed me.how sad it was.i knew her since standard 3 and i thought we were bestfriends ALWAYS AND FOREVER!but no matter how close we were, we will still argue for GUYS! DAMN IT!why must it be 'GUYS'?!i hate it and i really do.what bestfriends are we talking about when all we argue is about guys?i really hope that you're not as what i thought you were.have you ever wondered how i might feel when you talked bad about me like this?should I trust someone like you again?why can't you just try to put yourself in my shoes and think about how i feel when you said something like that to me?i don't know how am I gonna get through such problem.when i know you did THAT to me, guess what i've done to myself?i'm crying alone in the room.no one i can talk to.struggling.punching the wall.trying to cut myself.ALL IS BECAUSE OF A BESTFRIEND LIKE YOU=[ i do trusted every single words you've said but what have you done to the trust i've given to you?