Lost with no direction

I vomited at school this morning today.sighh.and then I realised I did not eat much things for few days.I think I did not eat anything for two days though.i broke my record weyyy!haha.i should be happy for it.kidding kidding kidding.ahahaa.i didn't know what happened to my stomach.feeling so uncomfortable the whole day.sad sad sad.but i still can tahan larh.not that lousy.i was planning to stayback today for pingpong meeting and accompany kah yin to greentown mall but i couldn't go): then my class teacher came in and she told us about our position in class.i've never thought i got 2nd last in my class.can anyone imagine it?2ND LAST WEYYY!!no kidding.haih.i was so dissapointed.and what if my parents found out i got such results?will they bury me alive?what should i do larh?i wanted to study but i was so lazy.can I really do well in my SPM?*wondering* what if i cant?i don't even dare to think of it.the struggles i'm facing sometimes might knock me down.but what I can do is just keep going.keep pushing on=[ after school, i chat with my godsister.she is my ex's cousin.she suddenly told me my ex was with a girl that smoke.that moment,i remembered about something.didn't want to mention in details.but i can tell you guys.i felt so angry but i couldn't do anything.i wanna scold her but I can't.i hate her so much.nevermind.i don't want to talk about it anymore.ruined my mood=( today when i got home,there's something that makes me felt happy.kah yin texted me and ask me how am I.haha.i was really so damn happy cause I never thought she would text me.haha.thanks kah yin.i appreciate it alotsa!