Please don't let anything wipe away my smile

Another sad day i got): sighhh.i really don't know why god planned all this for me.to make me a stronger girl?or is it my fate and i have to follow everything?i'm useless in everything.STUDIES,FRIENDSHIPS AND AND AND FAMILY=( i feel so much to hide myself.i don't want to see people.i want to run away from my house and to a place where no one knows me.i might as well feel much better about it.no one knows how hurt am I right now.nonono.GOD KNOWS!sometimes i felt god is playing with me.if that day I did not wake up in the middle of the night, I wouldn't know the truth.and I rather I did not know anything than to know EVERYTHING!all I got now is disappointments and hurts. I didn't want to cry anymore.I don't want.but it is so hard to hold my tears.I reallly hope I can hug SOMEONE!cause i felt COLD eversince that day.THAT TUESDAY...................