The emptiness

Today is my school's report card day.i know i'll be damn bored.and yeah,just as I thought.but there's a bit different this year compare to the previous years cause this year HE teman me all the while when i'm in school.HE take away the loneliness i feel in my heart(: thanks again.one by one,all of my classmates left with THEIR parents.i did have some weird feelings when I saw them.how to say?hmmm.i was really hoping my parents would come and take it for me.but i know is impossible.ya,it was!I accidentally heard meow meow said something to jamie.she said, 'This is the first year my mother did not come and take my report card.' At that same time,I was asking myself, 'how long my parents did not come for the report card day'.And then I realised......since I was primary.I thought I'm used to it.my parents can't come for this special day,can't really celebrate the important events throughout the year.i really thought i'm used to it.but actually i'm not): i still felt sad.still felt lonely for no reason at all. I always tell myself is good also larhh they did not come cause at least they wouldn't be sad for my results and teacher's comments.but deep in my heart, I know I want them to come so much.Am I childish?to some people,they might think I'm weird.but that's how i feel larhh.couldn't escape from it.