wishes for you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VIVIEN! haha.i hope this year would be a great year for you.and i do appreciate our friendships.the time we spent together, i would never forget.i'm sure you would be very happy because your boy is celebrating your birthday with you.haha.mwahhhs.

I'm stupid

hmmm.i have lots of things to say.i just don't know where to start.i'm trying to get more advice from my friend about what i'm facing.i hope it is a right thing to do.i could have tell everyone but not HIM): sometimes i get so fed up with my friends.not all.mostly.SHE, the one i trusted the most betrayed me.how sad it was.i knew her since standard 3 and i thought we were bestfriends ALWAYS AND FOREVER!but no matter how close we were, we will still argue for GUYS! DAMN IT!why must it be 'GUYS'?!i hate it and i really do.what bestfriends are we talking about when all we argue is about guys?i really hope that you're not as what i thought you were.have you ever wondered how i might feel when you talked bad about me like this?should I trust someone like you again?why can't you just try to put yourself in my shoes and think about how i feel when you said something like that to me?i don't know how am I gonna get through such problem.when i know you did THAT to me, guess what i've done to myself?i'm crying alone in the room.no one i can talk to.struggling.punching the wall.trying to cut myself.ALL IS BECAUSE OF A BESTFRIEND LIKE YOU=[ i do trusted every single words you've said but what have you done to the trust i've given to you?

Confusing

Here i am.I'm blogging again.i thought i wouldn't blog anymore because I hate THAT blog.So from now on, just IGNORE it.it meant nothing to me anymore.sighh.lets start talk about my school.today teachers did not teach much.they just let us do what we want.i thought of slepping.haha.but i couldn't): yesterday i received a call and it bothered me.i slept around 1am last night.i thought i might very sleepy today but ta~da.i did not.haha.THAT STUFF keep playing in my mind.after all, i thought i could open up my heart to SOMEONE.but I think I should change my mind now.i didn't want to hurt anyone by the decision I made.So I think I should be wise in every step i take to make sure that no one is gonna get hurt.YEAH!that's it!haih.i am soooooo sorry!