our first month

ALL I EVER WANTED TO TELL YOU:

i was really so touched with every single thing u did for me.U might not know.Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things i want to say can find no voice.Then, in silence I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.I know it's love when my heart jumps out and whenever i think of myself with you.I know it's love when all I think about is you, when nothing else matters, except being with you and talking to you.i know it's love when all i daydream about is your looks and when i can trust you and tell you all my secrets.when i feel all these things,i know it's love.Whenever i see you my heart jumps.i think of you constantly.Want to be with you always,dream of you everyday and trust you more than anybody.You are the guy,the caring and gentle guy.i was the lucky one.the one to be able to share my life with you.We are the lucky ones to have each other.thanks for the gift(: and all that you have done for me.

My Memories of You

Will always remain

Forever

Present in my heart

Forever is what I think of

Again,I was late.haha.i just got to remember my password.haha.yerrr.nevermind.let's go back to saturday(: hahaha.was really happy that day cause I got to meet HIM again.lols.we went to eat with jamie and desmond.haha.des was indeed a gentleman wey.he fetch us.thanks to HIM=D and then we all were enjoying chatting.hahaha.it's really fun because jamie was here and everything will be fun enough when she's around.cause dibuli oleh saya.ngek ngek ngek.SUNDAY,another happy day for me.I thought it would be a boring day because another couple did not come to church.haha.luckily,I still have HIM to teman.didn't know why HE keep look at me that day.I know i'm weird with the contact lens.yorrrrrr.haha.my heart beats so fast when HE keep stare at my eyes.ask HIM not to stare but HE still did it.arghhhh.made me so shy only.though i sounded uneasy with the way he stare at me,I still felt very happy because all HE see was ME!hahaha.after church service,HE did something.haha.something that i had never expect before.LOL.HE's just so daring.But i'm glad because laughters and smiles are what WE shared together.anti sadness=)

I"m not gonna tolerate

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i hate you soooooo much!why are you asking me to think of your feelings?why didn't u try to think of mine?!!!!!!F*** u!u're more selfish than you thought you were.

Lightens my mood

woahhh.so long didn't update my blog.HE went for 'hang san' this morning in menglembu but HE couldn't make it cause of the rain.not long ago,HE appeared right infront of my house.i was so damn shocked.i didn't expect it to be happened.haha.we just talked for few minutes.i think(: THE FIRST MORNING SURPRISE!later on,i went for tuition today.lol.itu KAHWENG seriously so damn blur when HE was doing account.ahaha.first time i'm having tuition with HIM.actually, I didn't expect him to be so funny one.aiyoyo.laugh till stomach pain already.i wanted to thanks a person.she's JAMIE!i was so touched this morning when you said you bought me sandwich and wanna give it to me.but too bad.haha.something came up.thanks alot.i didn't expect that will happened.after tuition,i thought of going parade with HIM but HE suddenly told me HE couldn't go.actually i got bit disappointed but I didn't tell HIM.haha.when I've reached parade,i was walking with my friend.after that,i walked separately.I was alone at cold storage.suddenly.........HE appeared behind me.i was so shocked and happy.really and seriously.haha.i keep asking HIM why wanna play me and i acted i'm angry of it.ahahaha..deep in my heart, i know i'm smiling cause he came((: haha.ANOTHER SURPRISE HE GAVE ME=D i really never thought HE would gave me such surprises.but plsssss.dont give me too often!hahaa.i scared i will faint with your SURPRISES~we went back around 2 something.HE accompany me to take bus.i kept the bus fare's tickets.haha.i want to keep it cause this is the FIRST TIME i took bus with him.i wanna remember it as long as I can:)

The emptiness

Today is my school's report card day.i know i'll be damn bored.and yeah,just as I thought.but there's a bit different this year compare to the previous years cause this year HE teman me all the while when i'm in school.HE take away the loneliness i feel in my heart(: thanks again.one by one,all of my classmates left with THEIR parents.i did have some weird feelings when I saw them.how to say?hmmm.i was really hoping my parents would come and take it for me.but i know is impossible.ya,it was!I accidentally heard meow meow said something to jamie.she said, 'This is the first year my mother did not come and take my report card.' At that same time,I was asking myself, 'how long my parents did not come for the report card day'.And then I realised......since I was primary.I thought I'm used to it.my parents can't come for this special day,can't really celebrate the important events throughout the year.i really thought i'm used to it.but actually i'm not): i still felt sad.still felt lonely for no reason at all. I always tell myself is good also larhh they did not come cause at least they wouldn't be sad for my results and teacher's comments.but deep in my heart, I know I want them to come so much.Am I childish?to some people,they might think I'm weird.but that's how i feel larhh.couldn't escape from it.